a sad day in Denver

Today my prinipal came and told me that i would not be offered a contract for next year to teach at denver chrisitian becuase the budget is being cut and art is being cut down to only 1 day a week per grade (which would basicly cut the position into thirds) and so i am being let go. I would apperciate your prayers as i look for another job and go through the whole process for a second time. God has brought me here quickly, so maybe he has somewhere else for me to go now. Thankfully God is in control and will be forever!

add on to middle school dance:

Today at school my 8th graders asked me if i was a professional dancer!:) i smiled and said yes, i had taken dance classes, they thought i danced hip-hop professionally!:) This is hillarious!:) But we have much better repore now!:)

Middle School Dance!

So tonight, i went to my first middle school dance in my whole life! It was hillarious! I had a great time hanging out with some of my 8th grade girls and i had a good converstation with the other art teacher! I was so excited! it was a lot of fun, the girls wanted to know "college" dance moves! Hillarious! Anwayz, it was fun and i had more fun with them then i have the whole time i have been teaching them. Maybe 8th graders aren't so bad!:)

Something new (and un-expected) for me...

Last night my roomate (who coaches basketball) and her fiance convinced me to make a braket for March Madness. Now i would like to state that i have never even heard of this, or if i did i completely ignored it and blanked it from my memory!:) But she manged to convice me!:) Then end of the story is that i decided that Florida should win because i am going to go there in a few weeks, but a few people in the running were gonzaga, illionios, and some others i can't rememeber!:) For anyone who knows me well (at all really) knows that this is a streatch! The games start tonight and for the first time in my life i might actuallly watch and care about a basketball game on TV! I know,... have a seat, ... take a deep breathe ....whatever you need to do, this is un-expected news!:)

questions.

Blek! I feel sick right now, but am making an effort to ignore all of Lilian (my parasites) cousins and feel better by tommorow for school. i hate feeling sick without knowing why.
in other news it is so beautiful outside today! It reached 77 degrees F. downtown today! Iwas so excited, i left school and had a smoothy downtown (in denver downtown is my substitute of the beach, in sioux center there are so few people my backyard is sufficant). I wore a tub-top, and i got tanned! It was soo good, but then came home felt sick, took a nap, went for a walk felt sicker, ate toast, felt sicker did some of my mums wedding pictures, felt better, felt sicker, prayed, and am writting.
Something more profound...
i wander around downtown and i wonder why there are so many homeless people. They say we are not supposed to pan-handle, but then what really is the soloution? Why is it htat people have to hurt like that and not have community around them and not have jobs, family, even a place to live that they can call thier own. Why do we allow people ot live like that and what the hell are we supposed to do about it!? Why are people dying of cancer? Why do children get teased mercilly at school and how much impact can a teacher have, studnets make thier own choices. Why don't schools just tell you when you are going to be fired or hired, why don't i know where i will be working in August. why does it seem that weather can make all the difference in a day? Why is it hard to feel organized as a teacher, why to i feel so young and un-professional? Why is moving to new places so wierd and different every place you move? Why do we buy into comsumerism? why do people think they need to have so many things? why is worth based on possesion?

so many questions...

Forgivness

So in the last post i mentioned forgivness, but looking back i realized that i had not mentioned it. So the story goes like this:
My college roomate and i hardly talked the last two years of college, i am not sure what had happened, but we had a falling out. God brought me to denver to teach and her to denver for grad school. But who would have thought that we would even run into each other in a city of 3 million people. Well, God would know and he knows the importance of forgivness.
I have been going to a church (a good ole CRC church, where people are welcoming and it is small and they invite me for lunch) and the first day i go to the church i talk to the preacher, who is only 26, then he mentions my roomates name and i am shocked, i see her out of the corner of my eye, but i can't be sure, so i ignore it. Going home i think about the awkwardness and i wonder if i should go to this church, but i figure we are both in a differnt place, there is no reason why we can't heal this relationship. I get to church 3 weeks later and we are eating at a potluck, she pulls me aside and says "can we talk" i agree and we go to another part of the church. She says to me, " I am really sorry about under grad..." I smile, my heart is warmed, how can someone find enough courage to appologize for someting that was not entirely her fault. So i contiue to say that it is not all her fault and that she should not worry about it. But she insits on the appology, i simply tell her i forgive her and then tell her we should go for coffee or something some time. We exchange phone numbers, this realationship is on its way to restoration. I am simply amazed because if you would have asked me a year ago, i would have said, good riddens, but God works in the hearts of his people in the most unique ways. We both had to forgive, but i felt like i had recived so much grace, she simply appoogized and i accepted, but for some reason i felt like that senario was harder for her then me. it is hard to accept an appologiy out of the blue, but it is even harder to offer an appology in a situation that lasted so long. One day we will go for coffee or to a movie or something, but the first step as been done and i am amazed by our creator.