Maybe i am not competent.... .. but then again

On Thursday my college supervisor came to vist my classroom for math. I had been off all day, i prepared my lessons so far in advance i had forgoteen what my plan was. So things had not been going well. My students were taking their own run of the classroom. I felt discouraged, then the talk came, and evlautation by my supervisor and then by my teacher. i went home, feeling un-compentant as a teacher. I felt as though i had failed, probaly the worst feeling in a while.

But then.....

.... Friday came. I was so mad at my studnets for acting out that i clamped down immeditally. I didn't allow for any talking to me while they were working, i made clear expectaions and clamped down on all talking. I am on my way to a teacher voice. I realized that you can have alot of fun with the studnets if you run an orrderly classroom. THey learn more, i get to teach more, and that is better. THings arn't perfect, but at least i am learning. It felt better to be successful but then i had to deal with all the "so...what did we learn" statements. Sigh. Only one week left!