I am Old

Now, i know most of you a thinking, you are not old, your hair is still brown, your skin still smooth and forheavensakes, you are not even thirty yet. But i feel old.
First off i went to a worship thing, and that was not good. The message was based on like 30 passages, and we sang songs i didn't know, and the message was so.... ... milky. I started thinknig should i be craving some kind of deeper spiritual food? I do, so now the question become where do i find it? if i am wanting something deeper, are other people too? then why is it so hard to find. If we are all (as chrisitans) searching to learn more about God and His charecter and grow in our relationship with him, then why is it that so many messages are the same thing... milky. i think i am not explaing myself clearly, (words are not my forte) How many alter calls to you have to hear before you get to learn more about God, who he is, and how he communicates with his people. I have given my life to Christ, so i don;t have a need for altar calls, i know some people do, it is good to provide the oppurtiuny, but what about those of us at differnt points in our faith. Any insight, please!?

I feel old today becuase i am tired. I have been up at 6:30am and to bed by after 11pm and it makes me tired. but i went to a teachers confeacne today and it was good, i felt old there too, because that means i am almost an adult.

Anwayz, my students constructed thier own understanding and am teachnig this unit they way teaching has been modled for me at Dordt, and it is being succsessful! Also, a student and i decided together on a book for her reading level, and that was huge prgress for her, then enthusiasum in her voice was amazing.