True Faith

Week one of Bible camp done. Unfortunatlly we have decided to cancel our first week of family camp, which in reality is fine with me, because i do not feel prepared for that job currently. It seems to me like we have a really good staff, but they are soo young! Three of our conulars are the same age as my little brother and sister, that is kinda wierd to me! But they seem eager to work and seem to really enjoy each other. I felt welcome right away. BUt now i am home, and that is wierd. What else is new. i am not totally convinced that you are supposed to live with your family after you have moved out on your own. But that is ok, it is all part of the experaince. I am still in the hunt for a job, but things seem more promising, probally becuase i have had more of an opportunity to look for a job, amazing how that works.
As part of camp training we had to take a solo, time alone for me and God, something i have grown to cherish, and long for. I know, Sandy Altena would be proud. ANwyaz, I have given this whole job thing to God repeatedly, becuase i have no idea where God wants me to be and i desire to fullfill his purpose where ever it is. Anwyaz, i had begun to doubt that what i thought about faith was really true. I wondered if trusting totally and completely was really enough. So here i was sitting in the middle of a field listening and watching. i watched as about 5 barn swallows en-circled me. Swooping down in front of me around me and then got lifted up and carried by the wind about 3 feet and then they swooped down again and got carried by the wind. When they really wanted to stay somewhere for a while they would stay close to the ground and then they would allow themselves to be carried by the wind. It was extremely windy out that day. So i began to think of that verse (i cannot rememeber where it is found, please help me out) where it talks about not a sparrow can fall from the tree with out the eye of its heavenly father. And i began to think that complete trust is hard, but God takes care of his creation no matter how big or how small the creation is. and GOd will take care of me. That means that i still have to hunt, like the barn swallow, but i can be free in my trust, just as they are free to fly on the wind to whereever it carries them. Maybe i am off target, a little loopy or just plain free, but i would love to hear your thoughts on what True Faith is. I took a look at Hebrews 11 and 12 as well, and i have hard pressed to find a definition that makes sense to me. Thoughts please! Blessings, Rachel;)